I don't really know...What exactly to post here anymore. Spending EVERY day with him, Tends to make this not such a necessity anymore, But I'll still update it. Why not. :)
Alright, so shit loads of shit has happened.- God it's only Wednesday?- Alright so me and Dawuane are good. Though the subject that was brought up last night, kind of...Pissed me off a little. I guess they think he's going to make the same mistake twice.. But how? He doesn't want to separate from me, whats so bad with that? Nothing..Really. I don't mind him being around. We end up hanging back out again eventually. Either that night, or that morning. Lol. I do go through little fazes where I HATE not having him in my sights, But I try to ignore that, I don't want to smother him. Maybe time apart is good? I just don't want him ending up doin something stupid. But I have more confidence in him now. He's getting over Arika very well now...Now that I got all that bullshit off my chest all in that ONE night. THAT was crazy.. Ugh. I've come to learn that with him, You need dominance, and self empowerment. You stand your ground, and he really ends up not knowing what to do. Which were both good at. Standing our ground is something we do constantly. We can't stand being put down, Denied is another problem. I deny him, so he denies me. Which I hate, So I might ease up on that a bit. Got a taste of my own medicine.
Lol Funny how this starts to happen, THEN Cory starts coming around again. I just leave every time he does..It's just too weird. I actually think I'd snap on him if he acted like a fucking Dick again. Dawuanes already told him about the whole "Us" situation. And he just clearly shut up about it. Or that I know about. Everyone else is pretty...Respectful to me now. I mean- They were before, but they don't fuck with me as much now. Which is a good thing, I like being claimed. Being territorial with me is a good thing, I love that.. *Shrugs* That's just me. I can handle my own, of course, But I like having someone bigger, someone stronger to be protective as well. Someone well respected as well. I'm very territorial as well. I haven't been...PUT into that situation yet, but I'm sure I will eventually. Damn hoes around the Trailer Park, gotta push my buttons. Nothing so far to worry about. I hope I can continue to trust him.
Silent agreement; Don't lie to me, I wont lie to you.
Don't hurt me, I wont hurt you.
Don't regret me, I wont regret you.
Don't leave me, I wont leave you.
I'm pretty loyal, Ya see? Eh...If not, you will eventually. You said you wanted to change, But you are..:) Everyday, Your changing into a better man. And I feel proud to be the one to be helping you change. You'll have a job, and a place of your own before long. I'll have a car, and my own place as well. We're growing up, and were still only just friends?
You bring up dating almost everyday, Haha Or other people do.. Just make the decision already. It's up to YOU. I'm completely cool with whatever you choose.<3
So I'm probably going to get a shower, Clean my room a bit, Call you, maybe before you call me, and see what's goin on.Yay for a fixed Laptop<3
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