With the absence of eye, I can start to bleed again...

I just wanna die..

I think I'm suicidal again...I mean honestly, I don't want to go back into that rut I went into for so many years before...I've got two full bottles of Ibuprofen and Bayer,  a razor and a mental breakdown... I havn't DONE anything yet...But I know I will if I get to it. I want to...

I want to...
all over...Down my legs, up my arms, across my chest,
over my shoulders,
around my neck..
i can't take it.

The pain will be unbarable, but I want it to stop..

Maybe the blood will excite me..And the pills will numb the pain..
My stomach hurts...
I don't want to be alone anymore.