"Lithium~ don't wanna forget how it feels"~

I'm..Very tired. So tired, that I'm not going to do, ANY...Of the math homework I have to do, only because I don't even know if I'm even staying in that class. I have to go in on Monday, and ask the councilor about whether or not I'm being switched- or what. I really hate that class though, The teacher is annoying, She gives way too much homework, and doesn't teach shit right..Grr. I hate failing, I'm sadly a perfectionist.

My neck...Is..A complete...Mess. Lol, Like seriously, Huge...HUGE bite marks/hickeys all along my throat. He really did a number that time- but the day beyond all, was so great. We played basket ball, went to his house, hung out up there, fixed the windows, Haha, left everyone without saying a word, and just hung out here for the whole day, till I walked him halfway.

I read about our Signs today, Well...Our Zodiacs, and it talked about everything..Everything to how secretive he can be, and how gentle I can be, which is a side no one ever see's. Which he points out all the time. How he's never seen me be so.....NOT...Cold..With someone, specially with someone like him. I don't..know WHY I get so relaxed around him though, I just feel protected, and warm. There's just so much more to him then meets the eye. And I see that in him, I know he can't /always/ be that asshole he comes off to be to some people, I hear his heart beat..I feel it. I feel it beat against my own, and it reminds me that it's real...And that I'm not just imagining things. That I'm not alone, and I'm seen...Felt...I feel it all...The warmth, the reality, the passion....Passion? .Yeah...It's there.

I know I can be a softy, but that can change so fast depending on whats going on. I can be colder then ice to someone who's pissed me off. I just wont stand for stupid childish bullshit anymore. I'm not dealing with Arika, I'm not dealing with her mom, I'm done with them. Really. I get afraid that Mama will start turning against me though. I mean, She always does, to every girlfriend he's had... Will that make me the same?

Technically, were not even dating..So Sorry if that seemed...Off. I was just meaning the people he's been involved with...

Our Zodiac signs apparently say we'd have an amazing Sex life..Lol, It's so funny what they say XD They say we'll make great lifelong mates, That were both Dominating, but it ballences out somehow- Which is does mind you.

I mean...I can't believe it till it happens, IF it happens, but if anything, I'll always still be his best friend.. I'll always talk to him about things, and I can hope he would to.

I don't know..there's so many memories going through my head now... I'm so tired though, So tired...